i want to send this to my friends so they can finally understand what i’m saying half the time
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it will be this hard.
Our daughter. I know my blog is usually used to Glee stuff but it’s still my personal and it’s where I write her letters.
Hi my sweetpea. Two letters in two days. Aren’t you a lucky girl? I talked to your Aunt Liv today. I’ve told you about her. She’s my buddy in Australia. Her dad passed away last year. I asked her to ask her dad to look out for you. She said that he already was. I’m glad to know that you’re not alone up there. That’s what I have the hardest time with. Knowing that your mum and I can’t take care of you. We should be able to and it’s so frustrating that we can’t.
Did I tell you that mummy and I have picked a date for the wedding? January 13, 2014. I can’t wait to finally marry her. It’s not fair that you won’t be there though. You should be the flower girl. Aunt Bee will be there though. Hopefully Aunt Liv too. Maybe they will light a candle with me the night before the wedding for you. It’ll be sad to not be with mummy that night but I know she will be lighting a candle for you too. I’ve no doubts. Hopefully we can do something for you in the wedding as well. I believe the plan is to have a flower that is in the shape of a star for you. Maybe I can talk mummy into a sweetpea flower too. I’m getting those flowers tattooed hopefully within the next year for you.
Man I miss you. Everyday I think about you. This world would be better with you in it. I don’t know. Maybe you’re lucky to not have to deal with the pain in life. I know you’re mum and I wouldn’t ever let you deal with pain. After everything we’ve been through, we would protect you with our lives. I can’t wait until the day that I get to hold you in my arms. I guess I should go now, sweetpea. I love you so much, Charlotte Rose.
I’m trying to write it, I really am but my head just doesn’t seem to want to let me. I’m sorry. I’m working on it though.
“Beautiful. True. Words to remind yourself, words to live by.”
this is an actual scene from the movie